Toxic father daughter relatsionship? ?

I'm 18 and for as far as I can remember my father and I have never gotten along. I may have been a brat growing up because we were really well off but I was child and didn't know any better but I came to evolve on my own and undstand it's not about me and hav been humbled. But my fAther has made me want to do drastic things I've seen how he's made my brother all on eggshells and how he's kept my mother from living HER own life and having friends I feel bad for my mother. He's even said he doesn't care if I Ever killed myself! And that I'm a slut.dirty whore mother f-----. How can a man like that be my father? None of my friends dads are like him why is mine he gets so nasty then foregts and trys to act like nothing I'm 18 going to a community college because he doesn't pay my school I do and it's more affordable for me. How can I start looking into going away to school? Could finiancial aid and student loans help the costs